the other poem i said i would post

Ok, so my fingers hurt the other night so I didn't add this poem alongside the other one... it's sadish, but uplifting too... it's what I wrote after the horrible weekend I had. I decided to post it on here, cause it's part on my life as a college student and that's what this blog is following. And I didn't write it just for me. As I wrote it, I was thinking about the other peoples (not just women) who've gone through something like this.. but ya, I hope you all like it... dunno, lol....

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~Mending a Broken Heart~

I'm sitting here in front of my computer.
Your words fill my heart with grief.
Why does this happen?
I'm falling now,
hurting deep inside.

You once said you loved me,
You once said you were only mine.
Now? Now you hold another in your arms.

I can't bear it.
My heart is breaking again.
Over and over,
Lost in this bitter-sweet sorrow.

Everyday I watch as couples bloom,
As the seasons turn.
Yet I grow older with no one as my own.
I can't bear the pain again.
You've broken off another piece of my heart.

I can't bear it.
My heart is breaking again.
Over and over,
Lost in this bitter-sweet sorrow.

As my tears fall,
Your laughter echos.
As I curl into a ball,
You hug her close.

You once said you loved me,
You once said you were only mine.
Now? Now you hold another in your arms.

The night grows darker
And I give myself up to God,
Asking for the pain to leave.

Settling in the darkness,
This ripped heart cries for love,
for joy, for anything.

God leans in,
Whispers sweet melodies.
Section by section
He sews my broken heart
back together.

As my tears fall,
Your laughter echos.
As I curl into a ball,
You hug her close.

But... Guess what?
God is my life. My love. My future.
He carries me on His back,
Into this bright melodious fall day.

Leaves are now changing,
Wind now sweeps in.
Snow will be beckoned
And so will my soul. So will my heart.

You once said you loved me,
You once said you were only mine.
Now? Now, while you hold another in your arms,
God takes my hand and leads me
To His glorious paradise.

He's my love, my life, my heart.
Beating and stitched,
Molded by my creator's hands,
My heart beats for Him.

And maybe one day...
The man he's made for me.

Leaves are now turning,
Wind now sweeps in.
Snow will be beckoned
And so will my soul. So will my heart.

(Oct. 12, 2008 / 2:52 a.m)
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So there you have it, my newest poem... I will probably have more, eventually... but until then, just more ME, lol.

Peace out

~ Ashley ~